I do not really know what you want from me anymore because you continue to push me towards what you want for me, i mean there is no point even arguing with you about it because my words are not going to have any effect on you. I think after all this time i have finally realised what it is i want and i know that i will get there eventually. I am going to make you proud of me by doing as you ask and succeeding but i am also going to make myself proud by achieving what it is that i want.